24.10.11

Yes, I'm Crazy: Nanowrimo 2011

Yes, I'm crazy, but I'm going to do Nanowrimo this year. I know lots of other people are going to be doing it too (250,000, or something like that) and they're not crazy (necessarily); the thing that's tipping me over the edge into 'crazy' is that I'm going to write 50,000 words ON TOP OF all the other things I have to do.

And therein lies the reason for doing it. I can't prioritise writing my novel at the moment because I'm just so damn busy, but when I look back at the month just gone, I think busy doing what? Sure, I earn some money and socialise a bit and see a few films and play with the cat every half hour or so, but time just seems to pass unmarked in everyday life without some teeny, tiny accomplishment of my long-term goals. And my long-term goal is to write.

Part of the problem at the moment is that I do write, ALL THE TIME. I write blog posts (hiya!), presentations, emails, facebook messages, notes from research I've done, cases for support, minutes from meetings and lists of all kind: shopping, to-do, the lot. And all of this writing feels and looks like real, authentically-creative fiction writing enough to get me to sleep at night and make it feel like I'm moving forward. And the silly thing is, by doing all these things, I really am. The quicker, the sharper, the more succinct I am, the better. But none of it is my poor, neglected attempt-at-a-novel.

Although, saying that, it's not neglected at all: I think about it ALL THE TIME. Constantly, without end. I talk about it when people ask, and have all the stock answers about it for myself and others inside my head. I run scenes and conversations through my mind, often late at night, to check it all still works and is still there, and usually it is, and it does. I might make some notes, or think about setting some time to do it this weekend. I might really mean it too. But none of these things are actually WRITING. I'm becoming one of those awful people who spends all my time thinking and talking about doing something, and never actually doing it.

I'm doing that exact thing now, aren't I? Yes. Let this small rant me a mark of my current frustration. But all this will change on the 1st of November, when I enter the pit and get down to business. I'll let you know how it goes.

So, what are everyone else's reasons for abandoning civilisation for 30 days, in favour of sitting in a darkened, screen-lit room?

P.S. Don't look for me on the official site - I can't enrol officially as I'm not starting from scratch. I'll be doing my weigh-ins here, I guess, and be using the website for pep-talks and targets.

5 comments:

  1. how exciting! I hope it goes well for you :D

    This really resonates with me: I can't prioritise writing my novel at the moment because I'm just so damn busy, but when I look back at the month just gone, I think busy doing what? Sure, I earn some money and socialise a bit and see a few films and play with the cat every half hour or so, but time just seems to pass unmarked in everyday life without some teeny, tiny accomplishment of my long-term goals.

    I feel the same.exact.way. minus the fact that I don't have a cat lol.

    Actually to be honest, your whole post resonates with me. Because I constantly think about my novel as well, playing out scenes in my head, jotting down notes here and there...and this is certainly something.

    I think it's good that you're doing NaNoWriMo, if nothing else it'll be a wonderful jumpstart! And by forcing yourself to allot time for your writing, maybe you can build that into a habit that you can take beyond November.

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  2. As a newbie to NaNo I completely share your worries about the time needed to complete NaNo, 1667 words a day is a lot! But I think the support you get, the fact you are signed up to a challenge and other people are tweeting and blogging about it can only spur you on!

    Like I tweeted last night you can sign up and work on an existing project, but it does make you a NaNo rebel! I know the official website recommends you should start a new project but I think that is because they have found some people who are immersed in a story etc find it hard to simply write and not edit (as there is no time to edit) so it is seen as more of a suggestion rather than a rule!

    You should check out your regional forum on the official website as they set up write ins in libraries and cafes so you can meet and write with other people taking part in the madness!

    On that note, I better go and do some plotting!

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  3. Forgot to say, me and and friend have set up a Fun not Fear NaNo support group blog which you can find here - http://nanofunnotfear.wordpress.com/

    We have a mash up of lots of posts with hints and tips about finding time and taking part in NaNo!

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  4. Hey Nicole! I'd say, if it resonates so much, maybe Nanowrimo is something you need to do too? It could be really fun (or awful!).

    You're right though: I'm really hoping that this will get me back into some kind of novel-writing groove, as I've been out of it now for a while. How far are you with your novel? What genre do you write in?

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  5. Heya Em, the site looks great! I'm guessing these support things will be essential when we all want to throw our computers out of the window and die...

    I already have a user profile on the Nano site, so I'll go and fill in the other details at some point this evening. I do like the sound of being a rebel :)

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